This year began differently than any other year in my life. For once I went into a year with the mindset of, this is my year. This is the year for and about me. I've realized throughout my life, it's always been about other people. I've never really taken time out for myself. I'm a person who wants everyone to have a great time. I'd rather make it to where others are happy, even at the cost of my happiness and time. But one day it clicked for me. I CAN'T CONTINUE TO BE A PEOPLE PLEASER!!
I thought that if I did what people wanted, I would be accepted and loved. But I now realize that no matter what I do or don't do, some will accept and love me for who I am and some will not. At one point, I felt as though I didn't deserve to be happy. That everyone else should be happy and I just help them be happy. That no one should or did worry/care about me... so why should I? And what's hit me in this moment is that the most important thing missing is the acceptance and love I should have of and for myself! Which is why I say that this is my year. This year is about me. No longer will I be a "door mat". No longer will I do things ONLY to make people happy. I will be more assertive. I will do things that make me happy. I will make goals for ME and accomplish them.
I WILL LOVE ME! I WILL LOVE ME! I WILL LOVE ME!
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