Trust

Lately I have been thinking A LOT about my life. What it has looked like. And now currently what it looks like. I told my best friend today, "I don't know how to be happy or live life." I already knew that she was gonna give me an answer that I needed to hear but so didn't want to hear...lol! She said, "You have to get to a place where you trust God completely. A place where you trust that He has everything in control. Give up control. You have a control issue." <-- A mouthful, right?

But she was right on point. I never thought I had control issues....until she said that. It makes so much sense. Some people who know me, know that I have a HUGE issue with change. And it's the type of change that I can't control. Honestly, I have been totally lost because my life looks NOTHING like I thought it would. Right now. I am 31 years old. Single. No children. Finances aren't where I'd like them to be. Such is life. MY thoughts were that I'd be married by now with 1 or 2 children at least. Finances great. And take family trips. Sometimes just me and the hubby trips. And working on the vision God gave me when I was a teenager.

But when I really look at me and my life circumspectly (thanks Recina), I realize I am in NO place to add people to my life. A husband nor children. And I'm still learning how to be a good steward of my finances and life in general. As I think of these things, I realize that God knows what He's doing. I'm appreciative of how my life is at this moment. I don't understand why I haven't learned lessons earlier, but God knows. And I have to walk in COMPLETE trust IN Him. This journey I am on feels so long. But I'm in the right place at the right time. And beginning to ask the right questions to the right people at the right time.

So, if you don't COMPLETELY trust God for and in EVERYTHING in your life, ask Him to help you get to that point. Don't be discouraged by the things that may come your way. Your faith and trust and request WILL be tried by fired. But if you hold on to God and follow His command and His Word, you WILL SURELY come out as pure gold.