Heartbroken

All of my life, I've heard people of God, saints, believers say that God is coming back soon. One day a few years ago I heard a song and part of the lyrics say "Break my heart with what breaks Yours". In this song, the song writer is asking God to break his heart with what breaks God's heart. I've been singing it since the first time I heard it. Over the years, I've realized that I have become more sensitive with some things, spiritually and naturally. My question right now is, have you paid attention to why people's actions break your heart? I'm not talking about those you don't know. I'm talking about the ones closest to you. Those you have let in your heart. Now, this is not a blog that depicts everyone. But it is something to think about.

When I blog, I talk about me, my struggles, my thoughts, etc. I've been facing some things for YEARS now. And tonight of all nights, the lightbulb came on! There was a time that I wanted something so bad that it was all i thought about morning, noon, and night. I tried my best to obtain it. But it wasn't God. At times I would say I wanted God, but my actions did NOT back up my words. But now as in today, there is something I'm trying to obtain. And it's the kingdom of God and His righteousness. And now, I'm fighting tooth and nail to have my actions back up my words.

Interesting thing. As I think of a conversation I had with my mom today, it fits PERFECTLY with what I'm saying now. In the conversation, she informed me that she had to preach. And her sermon was entitled, "By Any Means Necessary". She was saying that the Devil tries to get God's people down, doubtful, faithless, etc. by any means necessary! But the flip side to it is, we as people of God need to pursue and seek God BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY!! It's time out for us getting blow after blow from the Devil and we just sit there and mope and SAY but not really believe, " My God is able". And why do I say that we say it but don't believe it? Because our actions don't line up with what we're saying. What does that look like? Glad you asked. Example: Things are going crazy on your job. It looks like you may lose your job. But you KNOW God has place you there for a reason. What's your response? People SAY: "God brought me to this job and He will give me another one", "My God is able to do exceeding, abundantly above all I can imagine", "I've never seen the righteous forsaken nor his seed beg for bread". People's ACTIONS: In service, sitting. Looking down, depressed, lost all hope, faithless. Looking on the internet filling out applications when God hasn't told you to do ANYTHING to find new employment. Why do we do this.....TO GOD?????

Now, when it comes to those closest to us. Those we have let in our hearts. How many times has someone you let in your heart hurt you by not taking your word as a true statement? Yes, we have disagreements. Yes, we argue. But when your telling the truth (not saying you lie all the time or ever) and trying to live peaceably with those who are connected to you, it hurts down to the bone when they say things that cut below the belt, right? It feels as though they have taken your heart out and ripped it to shreds, especially based on how close they are and how much you care about them. And you think to yourself, why would they do this....TO ME???

So now, let's put this altogether. It hit me today that there was a time that I pursued something other than God. I pursued it by any means necessary. To have things my way. But I was still saying that i loved God. I was saying that i believe God. I was singing praises unto Him. I was shouting/dancing with the best of them. I was doing things but my lifestyle did NOT reflect what i was saying. And now, I'm saying things and I am by any means necessary seeking the kingdom if God and His righteousness. But God had to show me something. A lot of times I ask God, what is the lesson I'm supposed to learn from this situation or that situation? And today God brought back the words to that song, "Break my heart with what breaks Yours". As the words came to my mind, He let me know that right now I am experiencing the heartbreak I caused Him when I was saying one thing but doing another. Everytime I experienced someone breaking my heart because they said one thing but did another, I was reaping what I had done to Him. And the reason is because I had not TRULY repented for the thoughts, words, and actions I had done against His will for MY life!!

Everyone reaps the harvest they have sown. Are you reaping your harvest? Have you TRULY repented? Are you seeking the kingdom of God and His righteousness by any means necessary?? I don't know if you have an answer to any of these questions. If you do, I pray that you do what you need to do to make things right and to get into Heaven. But if you don't, think about it. Ask God for His guidance. Repent, the kingdom of God is at hand!!! The signs of the times are proving the Word of God to be true more and more each day.

I pray you were blessed and encouraged by this blog. Please read, comment, and share. Email me at jay.robin10@gmail.com if you have any questions, topics you want me to talk about, or comments. Thanks in advance.

-JayRobin